Happy Mother’s day out there to the mommy’s and the furbabies Momma’s. It is a lovely Sunday. Most of the day was sunny out. I almost forgot to watch church today but finally remembered 10 minute in. That’s okay I got online and didn’t miss much. They were singing a song I never heard. It was nice- a good service. I might watch it again. How is everyone out there? I hope well and managing life in lock down! I try not to think about it much because I have been so emotional lately! Today I took time to think about my mom who has been gone for a very long time. I really miss her of course. My mom was a great person, so much love, so much empathy, so much humor and just a wonderful honest beautiful woman! She left this earth way to early! That makes me sad to think about so I will stop now. To much sadness lately and I just can’t handle it! It’s a funny thing about memories- good ones you want to keep and ugly ones I wish I didn’t remember! Murphy’s law right? Gotta take the good with the bad. So I hope everyone had a nice day. I wanted to go outside today but never made it out. Kinda bummed about that but there is always tomorrow as long as it doesn’t snow again or rain. Our weather here has been pretty shit and crazy lately and boy am I tired of it! I mean it is May! What is going on? I feel like so many things are bizarre, twilight episodes, lol… On a different note, my church sent me a mothers day card with a packet of forget me not seeds to plant. I thought that was so neat and kind of them to do! I really appreciated that and it made my day! My honey brought me a beautiful mini yellow roses, they are so beautiful! I absolutely love flowers! OMG this laptop is making me crazy. Ya know when something is new and your brain is slow at times figuring things out and this thing does some weird shit at times… Ughhhh My computer fried so this is all I have now. I am grateful that I have it though believe me. I am so grateful for so much and I think boy I complain a lot and I seem not grateful, but the truth is that I am really venting not complaining- I think there is a difference. I need to get this stuff out and I don’t want to call a friend of vent to my husband. I think the stress of everything they don’t need to hear me cry about stuff! What do you all think? I don’t even know if anyone actually reads this blog, lol… I mean no way of knowing. I have asked everyone to say hi but I don’t see much, no one leaves a hi to me.. :0( I am probably talking to myself and it’s okay because I got the shit out and hey it’s better then nothing! It helps so who cares. I give up all that! I have friends out there at least I thought so- a lot are not working and you think they would show me some support after everything I have been through!! Some do but not many! The ones I thought cared has showed otherwise so I see it and it is noted! I have to just move on and not let it hurt me over and over! I will get there someday and I have to remember that those people are not worth my tears! The anger is me is like, ” tell them how you feel” But why waste my energy on shit people! Somedays I just sit it think why, what did I do? I have cut some people out but not these few who I really should. People who I have known a very long time! Oh I don’t know, I don’t want to make a mistake because maybe I am wrong! Not sure and that alone is aggravating! If they wanted to stay in touch bottom line they would! That’s that about all of that crap! Sorry I went there again, but I needed to. One of those days I guess, a lot of those days. A lot of time on my hands like most people now. All I do is think and think and think! Like all of you out there… Remember I love you all! One good thing that happened today? I remembered who I am!
Hello World!
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