Mad Monday

Hello everyone!

Hope everyone has had a good day! Mine started off rough. I am just sad and anxious and angry too! I never made it to Physical Therapy- That is what Happens when you rely on people who just don’t care! My husband broke a tooth and ended up at the dentist the same time I needed to go to PT. So I searched for someone to call and nope- I couldn’t think of anyone, This makes me so upset. When I was well I would help anyone! Now I am down and no one even checks up on me! I just feel like I have no one but my Husband and 1 friend Lil who cares but in 100’s of miles away. My sister would be here for me but 80 miles or so away! I understand some just can’t help but some can and don’t even reach out! My burden to bare! Again, that feeling of being all alone set in again today! It is a horrible feeling! I am very depressed! Again another awful feeling! I can sit here and just cry all day. I am trying not to do that. Hard day!!!! I try to remember all the good things I heard yesterday in church and how good it felt. Then My Mind starts with the looping thing- tomorrow the next day, next week – how am I getting to PT, or other places I need to go- Dr appts. Ughhhhhh…. When you are unable to drive you have to rely on people and when people you have are unreliable it makes all the stress 100 times worse! I have buckets of stress times 100 right now! We try to do the right thing and give raises and it seems it’s not even appreciated! I really don’t know what is next but I can’t keep going like this- stress everyday! I am not sure what the answer is but my heart hurts so bad today! I wrote something on my facebook and one person reached out and asked a few things but says ” it must be frustrating!” It’s beyond frustrating- No one gets it. If I don’t go to PT is sets me back I cannot afford anymore setbacks , none of us can! If you are in a similar situation and go to PT you would get it! I am angry at the world right now about everything! I know tomorrow I will feel different. I at least hope so! Well I really don’t know of anything else to say right now as I am in a funk! 

One good thing that happened today? I woke up to a loving husband and furbabies. I am still alive to do what I was meant to do on this earth- I am working on all that! Remember friends, I love you!