Sacred Sunday!

Hello Sweet World!

Happy Sunday to you all!!! I feel so good today. I kept a promise to myself. I told myself last night that I am going to church! I got prepared last night. All my clothes were ready and waiting for me- My shower items were in the bathroom. I mean I prepared myself to have no excuses because I couldn’t find something or taking to much time and running late to say forget it- next week maybe…

I am so proud of myself and my loving supportive husband! I got up at 7 AM and got in the shower- I was ready by 8 am and we were off. A half and hour ride- the sun was shinning! It was so beautiful out and the birds were singing! The air was crisp and fresh! It felt good to breath it all in! I felt like a million bucks!  I was on a new adventure!!!! ;0)

We were invited many times to join a dear friend Tracy and her husband to this church. Well we finally made it and it was simply Glorious! Everyone that made eye contact said hello and welcome. I walked in with my walker and We had 3 different people who were part of this church looking for seats so I could sit down pronto! We felt so welcomed it was so incredible!!! I never ever felt that way walking into a catholic church- and I have been to about 3 or 4 different ones.The catholic churches- I am not knocking them at all but just sharing my experience with them.

I felt as I was home with complete strangers just coming over to us and welcoming us in and introducing their self. The music was incredible! They had guitars and many singers up on stage. Everyone was singing with there hands in the air! So much energy and LOVE… you can feel the LOVE!!!!! I am still in aww on what we experienced this morning! The Pastors were incredible and funny and one told a story of his childhood, simply real and relatable! It felt so good to hear the words of  Jesus spoken that way, it was exciting and easy to understand. We will definitely being going back. I would love to go every week. Also check this out- anyone who is new or just hungry is welcomed to stay for breakfast. They serve breakfast downstairs at the church!!!! Uhmm, wow!! We couldn’t stay this time but next time for sure!!! I am excited to stay next time to meet other people!  Usually when I attend church I cry and cry and can’t pay attention to much, but this time I cried a little but was able to pull myself together and pay attention, one because I was so excited to listen to what 2 different Pastors had to say. There was a woman and a man Pastor- both were so wonderful!  They introduced themselves to us at the end! I just feel so good about our decision to finally go! The best thing we did for ourselves! This church is a multi- cultural bible believing and spirit- filled Christian church. I can tell you that IT IS SPIRIT FILLED! :0)) I will be buying a bible soon just to read some prayers and stories I have forgotten over the years. I am excited to get a bible, never thought I would ever say That! LOL… My sweet sister Donna goes to church a lot. I have been like, ” oh brother “. I was so wrong to judge. If it brings you joy and happiness to build your faith or rejoice in that faith- WHAT IS WRONG WITH THAT?  NOTHING! Nothing at all! I was wrong! That old saying, “Live and let Live” Well boy does that have meaning to me today in a lot of ways! I am learning a lot about life these days, lol… and it feels so GOOD!

Struggles; Today I did a little and it was difficult. Even though I loved every moment of church today and I have to admit that walking into a huge room full of people and the music was a little loud- I felt like I was going to have an anxiety attack! Ughhhh.. Big sighs going on here- it was scary on and off and When it was happening I kept telling myself breath and be calm and turn my head a certain way so my neck would stop hurting! My head feels funny on and off, it must be because of the injury and it is so hard to explain! My husband was holding my hand and that eased my anxiety at times. I thought of all different things to help and it DID WORK! I was okay, but it was touch and go a few times. I think next time I will get there early and sit in the middle in the last row at the end near the doors! Thant might help! I will try that!  Little things to help, right? I don’t want to give up such a good thing. Before I would have! I would have left that building to never return because it was scary and uncomfortable and I would have ran! Well now I can’t run,( lol… A little joke at me because I barley walk let alone run! ) Funny not funny, right? Well if I can’t laugh at myself  then…

I am so grateful for my life right now. I know I will get better and I know I am becoming the better version of me! A little at a time, step by step, inch by inch I WILL GET THERE! Hey, You will too! Don”t give up! Hang in there. Reach out to anyone who can help you, but remember to try to help yourself a little if you can and if not it’s okay. One thing is reaching out! That’s the 1st step right and that is helping yourself! If you can’t reach out to anyone you know for whatever reason seek out mental heath or a Doctor. Don’t give up on you! Just Do It and Do it now! Don’t wait, like me. I waited and suffered! Don’t suffer alone- talk and write or draw. What is it that brings you joy? Nice clean joy? What makes you happy? Ya know people would ask me that and I would go blank! No clue, besides my beautiful animals and wonderful Husband and some family members and friends. I think or me- This injury, I was down and I mean down and couldn’t even respond to someone. I didn’t know which way was up! When I started to come out of it- I struggled with EVERYTHING that I couldn’t think a lot of what was happening! When I was lets say alert and understanding what was happening that is when I started to feel grateful for absolutely EVERYTHING good in my life! Sometimes maybe some of us has to hit rock bottom in life from sickness or whatever to be grateful on our way back up!  Ya know, if that’s he way it happens to be it! At least we learned it, right?

Well I have written a lot and it’s time to think about dinner and all that kind of stuff! So I will say good night wonderful people and Don’t forget I love you!

One good thing that happened to me? Today I went to Church! Thank you sweet Jesus!