Happy Sunday! What a beautiful day, even when it rained. I watched Church this morning. It was a beautiful service with a guest pastor and his wife. I loved them, they were so awesome. It made my heart happy! I might watch it again sometime! It was that moving to me. It always is but today it made me cry and think! Not that I want to cry but…
Today I hurt so bad, I can hardly stand up and walk. I have been moving this body like crazy and maybe that has just caught up to me. Not sure, but I do know that crossfit kicked my butt on Thursday!!! Even though it is Sunday- I don’t know- delayed reaction or just all the other stuff I’ve been doing? It’s possible! I also went to the nursery and picked out more flowers- did I tell you I walked like crazy all over it again, lol.. I love it! I love flowers and that place has so many different species! I feel serenity when I go there! 🙂 I have a slue of plants… My husband picked out most of them though. I still need like 5 more! They draw all the butterflies and hummingbirds! I have a few hummingbirds coming around now! In my flower bed my husband planted! It is so beautiful and there is different stones as the border wall, absolutely amazing what he did!
My cottage is almost complete. Now the floor needs to go down on top of the floor it already has! Then the big move in- My furniture, french pieces etc. Getting excited thinking about it! My honey made shelves all around the top of the wall where the ceiling meets! It looks so nice. Custom made by my honey! He made some custom shelves for my tv and soundbar speaker and receiver. Another 2 weeks or less and I will be in! I cannot wait. 🙂
So My allergies are kicking so bad, and my friend said the same, so I know it’s not just me or a cold. I feel like poop! I started to take elderberry and all my supplements. Vitamin C, vitamin D3- K2, B1, B12, a liquid multi, digestive enzymes. I think that’s it, it is enough I think. I might add or take away here and there. I am getting my water in daily and my veggies too! My smoothies and they are packed with nutrients and vitamins for my brain and body! My smoothie consists of Blueberry- key for the brain, strawberry, dark cherries, pineapple- so important for edema, tiny bit of avocado for healthy fat, ground up fresh flax seeds & chia seeds soaked a head of time- both of these seeds and high in omega 3, and so good for you! I will start to do smoothies 2 times a day now starting tomorrow. Good to work on the immune system- heading for fall and I want to be in tip top shape so to speak. I have been walking my butt off! It’s all good! 🙂
So all in all it was a good day except the pain and inability to get around all that good! Today was a rough day not going to lie! The struggle is still in full force! I didn’t do much around here. This morning I was all over the place but then the pain and stiffness was just so unbearable!!! I felt like going back to bed but I wasn’t able to get up by myself all that well and didn’t want to take a chance of doing that- I drank a lot of water- lol… not taking any chances, lol. Honey was home but out working in the cottage. So with that being said at one point I sat here crying! I got it out and that was important! Fuck you struggle! You’re not going to break me!!! Not today or tomorrow! So get in line with the rest of the shit! You are actually making me stronger! My coach says my determination inspires him!!!! I do it, everything he asks!!!! Even when it is so darn hard- I push!!!! I know struggles people and remember you are not alone. I am here in the same similar boat! Thank you lord and Jesus! I am grateful for being alive, for my family and my friends, for my babies and for my husband who loves me so unconditionally and I him!
One good thing that happened today? I realized that I can handle the struggle, not wanting it or okay with it but It’s okay and even when I break down. I am allowed too! I need too and it’s okay! I love and accept myself in every way! Thank YOU for reading and drop a note if so inclined! Good Night!
