Snowy SAD Saturday

Good Morning Everyone!

How are you all doing? I am praying for you all! If you are reading this I want to say “I love you”! Take care of yourself today- special care. Be gentle with yourself and allow yourself to think about what your purpose is on earth. As this world has changed rapidly so has our identity for some changed. Some cannot work and that is a big part of who we are, right? That’s one example! We might have to do some searching to figure out what our purpose is. It’s a hard thing for me because since the brain injury I haven’t really thought about what was my purpose here on earth… I now can see some of it and I really feel it is talking to all of you – to hopefully give you a glimpse into my life as I struggle to heal from this life altering brain injury! To let you all know that you are not alone with struggle and sometimes I think that all this struggle has made me a stronger person in a sense. My belief was always that     “everything happens for a reason”   Well through all of this I still feel that sentence  still holds true to me!  Amazing to think about that for a second! I still believe that to be true!!!! My foundation of belief! Someday I will write a book and put it all together neatly that it all makes sense. I feel like I have been all all over the place lately! Sorry if I am hard to follow- or maybe I just think I am – who knows right… What would really make my day and be so helpful if you all would leave a comment that you read this and visited my site- at least I would know I am not alone here!!! Some people say that they read it and although I do believe that they did – couldn’t they just leave a comment- even a hello!??? Is that to much to ask? Maybe it is! Not sure- I wish there was a way I could track how many came in- not even who they are but just numbers, ya know what I mean? I feel as if What I write that is so deep and important that it reaches no one and that makes me sad!!   So I watched a little video from Dr. Daniel Amen, do you know who he is? He is a great Dr. who has the tools to keep the brain in good heath and he shares his knowledge with the world! If you have Facebook you can find him there or google him.. He is such an amazing guy with such good stuff he studies! I have to get reading more of his stuff! I really feel he could be a big help with how we are all feeling with this pandemic going on out here! 

So we just got word that my husband’s mom passed away from Coronavirus. She was in a nursing home that was loaded with it on all wings! His sister was caring for his mother and put her in a home without his knowledge about 5 weeks ago! She was suffering and now is home with other family members. Very Sad when you cannot see a loved one or even give them a proper send off/ funeral! He never got to say good bye and he will have to deal with that as so many of us do now- because if your loved one is dying from this COVID-19 you are not allowed to see them, sit with them, hold their hand- nothing and they die alone!  But maybe just maybe they are not alone- She was crying out and calling for her momma for about a day or two- maybe she saw her mom there- not sure.  Listen to my story… I almost died almost a year ago- When I was so out of it at the time of my injury and I finally snapped out of it- I was with my mother ( who had passed many years before) I saw her, smelled her and she was touching my face telling me everything would be fine and she loves me!!! She was there with me- comforting me! When I woke up I asked for my mom and I thought she left the room to get something I then in that split moment realized She was with me from another dimension  or perhaps I was with her in that place – in between somewhere!!!  I had that experience and I will never forget it!!!!  Maybe she wasn’t alone! Anyway you look at it she is not suffering anymore! God speed Mrs M.  🙁     Very sad day today and We will be grieving for a while. I feel so helpless to him and I know he has to take his time and sort out all these heart wrenching feelings! I am here for as long as it takes! On this note I must get off here and cook and clean – yada yada yada or take a nap! A nap sounds good about now and Honey is outside working in the chicken coops!  Remember I love you and send some love this way!  Accepted and appreciated! One good thing that happened today? I woke up with gratitude in my Heart!  Stay safe and be well Friends!! <3