Super Saturday and the Struggle is Real!

Hello out there!

It’s been a while since I blogged. Sometimes I just don’t have anything to say, or should say anything nice to say.Or I remember and it’s bedtime! lol.. that happens a lot.  Stress is a killer!  We went out this morning very early to buy veggie plants to put in our garden. We planted seeds a couple of days ago but it would be nice to put in actual plants. It’s Quick yielding of course. That’s what we needed. Veggies are so expensive and half dead these days. Anyway, we go far from here about 45 minutes away. Now mind you, I have not left this house in months- I was delighted to go for a ride. I drank nothing but had a couple of sugar candies because I can’t travel with food in my tummy- Long story! 🙁   Sooo we go out there and there are so many people there in a little area scarfing up plants and not practicing SOCIAL DISTANCING AT ALL!!!!!!!! I mean are you kidding me??? WTH is wrong with these people!  I had to stay in the car- I couldn’t even look! My husband stood  way outside of the area waiting for some to leave so he could go in and social distance! Nope 30 min and the same crap so we left! I was just so upset about the whole ordeal- People just have no common decency for anyone else but themselves. I was shocked! I am not going to worry about people who could care less about me! Done, finito!  One another better note I had a friend call me this morning and I had such a nice conversation with her. She told me to keep my eye out for the mail, she bought me something and that just made my day. She is in another state pretty far from me. She sad if he was here she would help me, like I would for her if I could and she needed it and that’s what friends are for!!!! I about started to cry! Because that is how I feel! It’s pretty sad how not many people even call me, text me, nothing to see how I am doing! A few do, but a so called friend literally drives past my house to go to the store and can’t even ask if we need anything!!  You know how much that hurts my heart, I can’t even tell you but I can sit here and just cry my eyes out about it!!! And Here I worry about her, I text her to make sure she is okay and I certainly do not get the same in return !  I am just so upset at the fact that people say they are your friend and act like that! Although she did something nice and bought us food with all her food stamps she gets and we were so appreciative of that, but thought why would you leave the receipt in the bag??? I guess to make sure we new how many food stamps she used! That hurt my feelings too! I then felt guilty and shouldn’t have accepted them! I guess I am just very sensitive these days and why would I be that every freaking day is a huge struggle! My house is so dirty, omg the floors are horrible. I can hardly move because I did so much laundry, like 5 loads and to fold it oh my lord- I have fibromyalgia on top of everything else. If you have it you understand! I am very weak so to fold all this laundry is even more agonizing and debilitating! The pain is incredible!!!  That’s me today emotional and in tons of pain! Welcome to my world of struggle!  So I asked my husband  if he would help me tomorrow clean and of course he said yes, but then said He doesn’t want me doing any of it!  Not to mention my asthma- so much freaking dust in here that I am allergic too! You think you got problems? LOL … I am sure you do too and I hope to god not like me!!! Yeah, I am sure some are saying she’s got “the poor me’s” YOU bet I DO! For the record if you really think that, you can get off my page and go screw yourself! LOl.. I used to have a friend- I grew up with her- well she was an uncaring person and she would say that exact thing… “what do you have the poor me’s?” Ughhhh… Former friend! I dumped her rotten ass so long ago! Oh my I need to stop thinking about so called friends! It will just keep me crying all day and night! Everything is so emotional these days. My sounding board is this, is you! Thank you for reading my blog, my raw emotions out on my sleeve! Holy a lot of words going on here! Long one today… Well I guess it is time to get off here and stop crying! One good thing that happened today? I felt my husbands love!!!  Take good care everyone and stay safe!