Dear friends,
How are all of you lovelies doing out there today on Super Sunday? I am doing my thing at home as usual! Whatever my thing is, it is not cleaning today- Thank goodness! My body hurts so bad today so I am taking it easy. It’s pretty chilly out and my office is so cold! I am dressed warm but I need some heat, lol.. We turned off our heat because it has been so warm here. I might have to turn it back on to warm this place up. It is windy out again today. Just when I thought the pool wold warm up we get a cold day like this. Well that’s okay it will get warm enough soon. Summer is coming. My favorite time of year! I wanted to go out today but I just didn’t get there. I haven’t walked much either. All my muscles hurt today- maybe the chilly temps aren’t helping. Oh well no sense in complaining about it, right? Nothing I can do and I certainly cannot control the weather… or can I????…. Hmmm… Lol some say I am a witch! Like its’s a bad thing… lol .. Just joking people! Nah really, I had my husbands ex tell a bunch of people that “I put a spell on him”. it was very amusing at the time I must say. I put the love spell on him lets be clear! 🙂 That’s what happens when you fall head over heels for someone, isn’t it? I think so! Ah enough of that and onto serious things going on in the world and the USA. What do you all think about all the riots going on from state to state? It is just heart wrenching and outrageous with the murder of George Floyd, and all of those police officers that were there letting it happen deserve to be in jail too!!!! They are there to protect and serve the people!!!! When I think about it is make me so angry and sad what happened to him. I can understand why the riots started and all the violence- I think the coronavirus and being told to stay in has brought it to another level. I am scared as I am sure a lot of other people are too and wish it would just stop. The protests are good but hate and violence and destruction that is happening, is so very scary and can we come back from this ever!!! No more murder and destruction! How can you heal the hearts and minds of all of us. It’s so heavy to think about. Especially our black community who has suffered enough for so many decades. When can they heal, when can everyone truly be treated equally. How about treating everyone with pure love, because with love comes compassion and understanding and acceptance and respect! That’s all I feel. So many raw emotions all around us. The chaos and pain that everyone is in… what can we do as humans on earth to try to heal? I ask myself this question a lot about myself. How do I heal from all the pain I have suffered for many years in different stages of my life?! For me I can only concentrate on myself and Love and accept myself, and what I don’t like about me try to recognize it and understand it and try harder to be a better person- listen and act on my heart and not my mind! Boy is it ever hard. You become who you are by learning some ways and maybe protecting yourself in other ways and man it is ever so complicated! I am sure you know. I used to get counselling and changed Drs. a couple of times and I only found one person who really got me and she moved and I never found another person who I think really ever understood me to her level. I have someone now and She is so wonderful, I feel at ease with her and all but I feel that I don’t get too deep because it is just so painful, my poor mind always trying to play catch up, ugh I can’t go there right now in my life! TO much, way to much! No one ever knows what you have been through or why you are the way you are… that’s why we all need to accept people for who they seem and try to have more compassion for others no matter how mad you get- I am learning all over again! Life is all about learning and growing and I think that never stops. Do you ever think, I just want to be happy? I do, but not lately. One because I am living in the “grateful” mind most of the time now since this brain injury! Being grateful for your life brings joy and happiness. Sometimes I forget all of that because of the struggle… Right, that struggle hurts! It hurts deep. I am wishing you all love today and be kind to one another and pray for peace and for unconditional love- that’s what I think not necessarily what you think and that’s okay too! I love you. One good thing that happened today? I woke up!!! 🙂
