Hello Friends!
How about that crabapple blossoms right there? So beautiful, right? I am waiting for mine to bloom. It seems everything is taking so long to bloom this year. Or maybe because we are homebound and all I do is look everyday waiting for all the pretty colors to join us. It brings me such joy to see everything bloom and the fresh smells of flowers and trees!!! <3 Something to think about! It is such a dark and rain filled day! I just can’t believe all the rain we are still getting. Not happy, need sun desperately… You too? I thought about calling a couple of people today and then once I thought about it I didn’t. I don’t feel like talking. I’m not sure why, maybe depression. Not sure! All I know is this is so hard and we have had so many deaths in our family lately I just can’t even think about it anymore! I can just sit here and cry for hours! I have to stop this though because I feel like I just can’t. I saw an orbit of a this beautiful girl I know- who was absolutely beautiful/ stunning with children and I think grandbabies too. She died in her sleep a couple of weeks ago. So unimaginable, that she is gone and no one really knows why! Just like that.. Went to sleep and never woke up? I ask god, why god, why is all these bad things happening to us??? I feel like it’s such a cruel world these days.. My mind starts down that hole and well there ya have it… Down that awful dark hole, damn that hole! Like really girl pull ya self together, right? I am sorry guys. I head that way a lot these days. I was thinking about some people who have done me wrong and still try to figure it out! Why you would do people wrong who love you, help you? No one is perfect and god knows I am not! I guess it’s days when I feel alone and think about people who I allowed into my life and why, right? Why do we trust? Because we see the good in people and ignore those signs… I guess that’s why I don’t try anymore with people. I have given up some days! Boy, that’s stuff is deep. I better pull myself back up by the boot strings, and get the heck over it! Okay, now that pitty party is over, back to the matter at hand! It could be worse I could be stuck in a rehab somewhere trying to learn all over again how to walk! I think I will start to read some good books and try to get some good stuff in this pretty head of mine. I don’t really watch much TV so what else to do besides clean and do laundry and pay with doggies… Even the dogs need to sleep- lol… So, it’s time to get out of this chair and move… Remember I love you! One good thing that happened today? I woke up alive!!!! <3
