Hello Dear Friends!
What a crazy kind of day today! I tried to be calm as much as possible. It worked part of the day and then the other part… Well I am sure you know between this horrifying virus and life in general- I feel like I am in the twilight zone! I am sure some of you feel the same…These are trying times to say the least. If you live with someone, partner, husband, wife, sisters or brothers etc. I am sure someones feelings been hurt or irritated to the point of no return! Or maybe not. I know my husband and I both have been emotional, angry, sad, happy, contented all in one day!!! LOl, funny not funny, right? I am dealing with brain injury and my memory is off. Some days lately I cannot remember a thing. I am just torn and tattered at times throughout the day and evening! Other times optimistic and full of vigor. Then the tiredness so overwhelming at times I can hardly stand up to move! I haven’t been to Physical Therapy in weeks or maybe a month… not sure- memory thing! I see the more I am stressed the more my mind is a hit or miss! 🙁 and that is not fun! I could throw a few curse words in about now, but I will refrain. or maybe not fuck it! Well I am trying to be a little funny, not so sure if anyone sees it or not. Or if anyone has even visited my page?! So I might be typing for absolutely no one! If that s the case it’s okay because I need to get this shit out!! Yesterday I cleaned the house – holy shit am I in pain! I did way to much yesterday! Today I hardly did anything! I am still so tired! The more you stay down the more you wanna stay down and just sleep! It also could be the stress making me so freaking tired. Then my husband started our roof today. One section at a time- by himself!!! It is keeping him busy- I get it totally, but he is freaking me out! See, I had a close friend fall of a roof and die many years ago but I can remember it so vividly like it was yesterday!! 🙁 It was a really rough time in my life when he passed. So someone else I love on a roof is not a great thing for me these days. My nerves are shot! Pray for us please!
So, how are you holding up? I know it’s tough and please know that we are all feeling the same in one way or another. I wish I had a magic word to make everyone feel better. Just know “I love you!”
Well for now that’s enough for me. I need to got get my legs up because the are hurting. Please everyone take care of yourselves and if you can stay in. One good thing that happened today? Again, we woke up healthy and alive! <3 Be Well! Good night!
